So last year was weird. It was like a sequel of 2020. COVID was still around, we had to keep wearing masks, washing our hands after touching anything, avoiding crowded places, this last one actually wasn't an issue for me though since I hate crowded places. I felt like I was living an endless loop, not only because the world was stuck in this situation, but mainly because I couldn't change a single thing in my life, almost all my goals and plans I had for 2021 were aborted along the way. The only goal I was able to achieve was get into college and that one was actually pretty good because I passed to one of the best universities in my country and finally to study something I like.
When it comes to relationships it was frustrating, I couldn't get a single date, different from 2020 when I had 2, a personal record. Though I've tried. I tried with different types of women, different shapes, different colors, different social classes and even different ages (all above 18, ok? I know what you were thinking). And yet it just didn't work. I'm slowly accepting the fact that relationships are not for me, though I know I'll eventually meet someone new, have my hopes up again only to have them crushed next, as always happen. Or I'll just cockblock myself because I'm too shy and pathetic to make a move, like it happened last month when I went to watch the new Spider-Man movie, I just rejected a woman because I was too afraid that she would rejected so like a Cobra Kai I stroke first and now I'll never know what could've happened. And by the way the movie is awesome, no doubt the best I watched last year and maybe even the best of the Spider-Man cinematic universe, but this is not a movie review so I'll stop here.
And back to reality now when it comes to achievement I feel like it was a wasted year, I failed with diet and I've gained weight, I didn't finish any of the books that I’ve started reading (there's about 10 of them), I didn't save any money and actually spent way more than I should and could spend, didn't improve my language skills, and though I was really happy for getting into college at first, I didn't do my best and failed one subject and it was the most boring one so I'll have another six months studying that shit.
Most (if not all) of those failures was due to my procrastination, I acknowledge I have this problem, before that I used the work fatigue as an excuse, so I'd tell myself "I'm too tired today, but tomorrow I'll be less tired and I'll do it", and then I'd say the same thing the next day, and the next, and the next. And that way all I did was work and poorly studying and training.
But it's a new year and here I am to set new goals to pursue in 2022, I'll basically do everything I failed to do last year, which is all those things I've just mentioned above.
I'm motivated, I know motivation alone is not enough to change anything, but it's a start, also one of my goals is to get more disciplined, I've installed a time tracker on my phone to help me to follow my projects and I'll work on it, this will be my number one priority for the year, not being a lazy motherfucker anymore.
Writing in this blog is actually the first step into that change, it's a tool to practice my writing skills in English and to express myself.
So I guess this is it for today, if there's someone reading this I wish you a great year and come along with me in this journey.
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